I was in a car accident last night.

Last night I picked up my sister and her friend, I told them I would be dd just give me a call. I took the back roads home because the highway was just atrociousSP?) I went to hit the brakes a little to avoid hitting a deer( I did miss her) and did so going around a curve down hill on black ice. We spun about 10 times which sped our speed up ALOT, I finally got it to go the toerh direction, only to start spinning that way as well. We hit HARD backwards in a 4 foot deep ditch. The front end was up in the air, and my whole back EVERYTHING was pushed and torn up into the back of the car. The 2 girls are fine, thankfully. But my car is totaled, and I hurt so bad. I am not sure if it is whiplash, or the force of hitting the steering wheel. My hands are bruised. I was told that is from "griiping" the steering wheel. It was about 2 degrees when this happened. I have never been so scared in my life. I just kept thinking, no, this cant really be happening. I just dont know what Im gonna do. That was the only car I have. Insurance will not cover it because I didnt carry collision, only liability. I live in the country, just the kids and I. Without that car, we are kinda screwed. But the most importnat part is my sister and her friend are ok. I just keep thinking that if I hadnt gotten that car to spin the other way we would have hit head on, and they would have died. It is a 94 car, only drivers side air bag. And the girl in back seat wasnt even wearing her lap belt. It was just so scarey, U keep crying. I hurt so bad I cant even knit, if you could please send me some get better vibes?